Easy Release
How did I release love… It took months, from days that turned into years of loving without reciprocation…
Without simplicity or communication of what’s wanted from me…
My loyalty canvassed every time I seeked freedom…My feelings were played on a cheap checkerboard of games…
What I thought was magical came at the wrong timing, so I waited…
In moments I could feel her watching,
I could feel her thinking,
I couldn’t escape it at night I slept…she invaded…
I let my heart do the thinking when my mind knew this wasn’t for me…
Every time I tried to let go she appeared in some formality…
I started to realize the pattern,
How she couldn’t love, but wanted to keep me in love,
A dark spell I couldn’t elude
Giving her the power of my heart
Jaded in true love delusions…
No accountability of hurting me more than any other woman,
So I feared love approaching
I pushed it away in avoidance…
I needed to heal, I needed to relearn how love should feel,
Each day I healed…I took back control of my heart’s power,
I saw this wasn’t love and manifested the right desires…
I blame myself for hiding in love’s darkness…
Praising what couldn’t acknowledge the passion loving her gave me…
Love is a spiritual unity that should uplift me,
Love should see my imperfections and help me see the beauty,
Love is friendship in between distance
No matter what, love should want to see me happy,
Love should carry me when I’m tired of walking,
Love should be nourishment to the soul, helping me grow,
She was none of those things, which is why it became easy to let a broken love-story go…
In my broken love story…I released love through the sand turning time… 💜🏳️🌈💋 #easyrelease
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